This is truly where it starts with me. I got off an airplane after 17 hours of flights and a long stop in Chicago. First time for me to cross the ocean and to come to the United States. Nashville.

I was supposed to learn English, get to know the American Way of life,…but what all can change in a few months.

After all this time being awake I got home to a house full of girls my age. To be honest I was just overwhelmed- my fine english skills had deserted me and all seemed so surreal.

The next morning I woke up to a Bible Study/Retreat for Young Girls from Church. My host parents had sweetly agreed to host these girls so I could get to know them.

And as I sat down I could do nothing but think – where in the world do these girls live? Values from another century was my first thought. But I was impressed with their kindness and their efforts to include me.

Having been brought up between demonstrations to stop atomic energy and a socialist youth organization I could not tell you what I was more shocked about- the idea that Jesus would mean everything to these folks or that I was residing in the countryside now.

Now after much of a journey I am once again at a crossroad. I have to do the thing that God is asking of me. Not live the life that is comfortable, that I have worked so hard to achieve. God is telling me to give that up, to trust in HIM and to give back.

I want to follow, I want to be the one that is called on and listens,  just gets up and goes.

Lord, give me the strength to walk down your path. To seek your love. To live for you, alone!

Please let me find compassion, love and grace!